Always and Forever... (Desoto)

[Kirah Lovestorm]

I came by today to see you
Though I had to let you know
If I knew the last time that I held you was the last time,
I'd have held you and never let go
Oh it's kept me awake night wonderin'
Lie in the dark, just asking "why?"
I've always been told you won't be called home until it's your time

I guess Heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up for what you believe and follow it though
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is that Heaven was needing a hero like you

Kirah Lovestorm

Kirah had oh so sought out the comforts of her room to cry the tears of regret and shame. Kirah sat at her desk fingering a small amulet that she wore around her neck. How so she missed the love of her life. Today was the anniversary the day she had met him and the day she lost him. She felt responsible he had told her to run away on the battlefield he would hold off the troops while she did so. He had then kissed her and Kirah moved her hand to her lips almost remembering the soft touch and how much it affected her. The salty warm tears making clean streaks down her dirt streaked face from the herb garden and going over and over in her head why had she ran away she could have fought beside him the cowardly Lady Luck leaving her lover on the war path. His lips and hands all over her body and yet she lost him that day and along with that a part of her. Amber eyes misted over again and clutched the amulet to her chest.

When she had impersonated a soldier and went off to join the ranks. She was so happy she did or she wouldnt have met him and in doing so she found happiness after so many years of loneliness. He was the only one who knew her secret the only woman on the battlefront. The secret lovers until she was found out while bathing in the stream by enemy troops and then she had ran running into her commanding officer and he blamed her for leading the enemy straight for them. The enemies invaded their camp setting fire to their encampment killing the sleeping soldiers leaving a bloody massacre. Her lover running to her rescue clothing her sword in hand and looking at her with loving eyes though they were worried. There he told her to runaway him giving the small amulet he had always worn in war saying it was good luck. Kirah had smiled kissed him passionately murmured to each other their love for one another and that he would find her when everything was over with. From there Kirah was urged to run by Soto and then he himself ran into the enemy clutches his victorious battle cry heard above the war.

Now here Kirah was five years later remembering the sad separation and loss of her hero and love and all those soldiers who lost their lives including his even though they never found his body. Kirah lifted her head wiping tears quickly away at the knock on her door it was Rose telling her the tavern guys were asking for a singer since their hadnt shown up. Kirah smiled her sister knew what today was since she was the only one who knew where Kirah had run off for a year. Kirah pulled herself from the desk donning on her silken white gown and braiding her hair away from her face forgetting the tiara for once. She didnt want to be noticed but her voice was always noticed. Kirah hurried to the tavern and up on the stage where she received the whistles and cat calls which she smiled and asked the drunken lards "what song s hall I sing to day ladies and gentlemen" she asked. "The ERO' SONG MI'LADY" they roared in their drunken state. Kirah nodded remembering the lyrics faintly from her mother who used to sing here. She played with her dress and straightened her form and began:

Out of the mist of history he'll come again
Sailing on ships across the sea to a wounded nation
Signs of a savior and fire on the water
It's what we prayed for, one of our own

Just wait though wide he may roam
Always a hero comes home
He goes where no one has gone
But always a hero comes home

Deep in the heart of darkness sparks a dream of light
Surrounded by hopelessness he finds the will to fight
There's no surrender, always remember
It doesn't end here, we're not alone

Just wait though wide he may roam
Always a hero comes home
He goes where no one has gone
But always a hero comes home

And he will come back on a crimson tide
Dead or alive
And even though we know the bridge has burned
He will return... He will return!

Just wait though wide he may roam
Always a hero comes home
He knows of places unknown
But always a hero comes home

Someday he may carve his stone
The hero comes home

He goes and comes back alone
But always a hero comes home
Just wait though wide he may roam
Always a hero come home!

The song ended and she cursied saying quickly she was taking a break for a short moment to wet her throat. She recieved a loud applaud and couldnt help but smile and went over and order a water. After all Kirah didnt drink wasnt her habit of doing so. The cool iced water ran down her throat and all the while the song had reminded her of her lover which made her feel like crap. She fiddled with the amulet he had given her and she sighed. Since her younger days Kirah had grown and filled out quite nicely for a young wolfess. Her mane of hair longer and far more gold her white tips and other white showing off in her white gown. She thought about the song she had song and thought about her hero hadnt come home and she was pretty sure he was dead he hadnt come for her like he promised Kirah felt her eyes mist and she blinked quickly hiding the tears and forgetting about it she had to move along in her life but deep down she didnt want to.



I remember the last time I saw you
Oh you held your head up proud
I laughed inside when I saw how you were, standing out in the crowd
You're such a part of who I am
Now that part will just be void
No matter how much I need you now
Heaven needed you more

'Cause Heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up for what you believe and follow it though
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is that Heaven was needing a hero like you

Yes, Heaven was needing a hero...that's you.

[Desoto]

Desoto was at the end of his rope. He vowed that 'this' would be the very last place that he would check for Kirah at. This was it! This was the last stop! There would be no more searching! There would be no more sleepless nights wondering where she is, if she's alright or even if she's alive! Soto just couldn't go on like this anymore.

Once he gained access to the fort he headed straight for the local pub, recommended highly by the male hare that guarded the gates so jealously. He stated that there was great food, fun, females and plenty of booze! The booze part was what gained Desoto's interest the most. YES! He needed to tie one on.

The male wolf pulled his hood back up over his face and kept it there even as he entered the Tavern. It was summer and beasts looked at him strange for having a hooded cloak on when it was so hot but the last thing that he cared about was what others thought. His disposition was shrouded by a dismal cloud of sadness and despair.

Desoto arrived long before Kirah did. As a matter of fact by the time that she entered the Tavern he was pretty well lit. He did however sit quietly in the shadowed corner and kept drinking until he thought that he could drown the pain from his heart. And then he drank some more. He didn't care if he drank himself into a coma.

Absently he fingered the amulet that he wore around his neck, the very one that would fit together with Kirah's. When he was drunk like this he eventually ended up in a state of total and utter down heartedness. Indeed it was time to wander aimlessly around the fort, stumbling and searching for a love that he had almost given up on.

Soto managed to stumble to his footpaws, about the time that Kirah had gotten to the bar and took her first sip. His hood still hid his features as he fumbled and tripped, falling at her lovely footpaws. It was then that his sobbing stopped so that he could inspect her dainty looking footpaws further by looking at them, being close enough to almost lick them, as he ran his fingers over them. "Such pretty little dainty footpaws you have my... hiccup... my dear." He nearly collapsed onto the floor but managed to not since by now the two burly looking otter bouncers had a hold of him, one at each arm. Certainly they were about to throw him out on his ear.

[Kirah Lovestorm]

The water had helped with her uneasy nerves though right now a shot of whiskey would do her some good and so much more. She felt on the edge like her head was telling someone was here someone was looking for you. Like eyes were boring into her back which they were. Kirah kept drinking her water though stumbling and commotion caught her attention though she didn't really notice until she felt something touch her foot. Slowly Kirah looked down and couldn't help but snicker some drunken rogue it seemed she might as well help him to the back and keep an eye on him. She didn't need to sing anymore everyone here was wasted and singing like a crowd of vikings before a generous meal. Kirah shook her head swirling her water around in her cup and watching at the otter bouncers and Kirah frowned. "Wait just a minute take him to the back Ill keep an eye on him" she said. She really didn't want this guy on the road bad things happened to drunks they either wound up dead or thrown in jail for stupid things they tended to do.

Kirah followed the otter guys to the back where they laid him down on a cot. "You can leave us Ill keep watch on him I just didn't want him to get hurt" she said with a smile and the Otters left quickly as though they were abashed at something. Kirah couldn't figure it out was she ugly or were they disgusted that this brute had a gentle touch even for a drunk like he had touched her before but knowing he hadn't for sure she lit a lantern and got a chair to pull it up beside the cot to keep an eye on the drunkard. She left the room right quick to get a large mug filled with water he would need it for sure and knowing she would too. He was conscious or so she thought she could very well be wrong so she set the mug down. She brought the lantern over to him leaning over him checking over him "Sir I'm going to keep an eye on you while you detox" she said softly touching his cheek letting him know she wasn't going to harm him in the slightest way. Though she could help but stay leaned over him wanting to so bad to pull the hood back to see the face hidden beneath. Her heart sped though all she could do is imagine herself pulling the hood back and seeing the most hideous thing ever so she sighed deeply and most confused. She wanted Desoto wanted to go out and begin a new quest to search for him.

[Desoto]

The otter bouncers were none to gentle with him, not that he could feel anything at all anyway. It was likely that the next morning he would regret drinking the way that he did. Here he was the first night in a new Fort getting drunk until he couldn't stand. Now there's a great first impression for ya!

Soon they were alone. Desoto groaned softly but as she touched his cheek he suddenly grasped her paw. It seemed like he was dreaming or something because he began to rub his cheek on her paw and then to kiss it, rather lovingly. His dream seemed so real and even the smell of her paw smelled like Kirah.

A few moments went by and then suddenly reality began to crash down upon him. He wasn't dreaming. He was awake and really kissing and smelling someone's paw! Soto jerked slightly and then gave his apologies, in a rather drunken voice. "I'm sorry M'lady. You remind me of someone that I once knew." Soto felt like he could throw up, not because of the drinking but because he was so torn up inside about Kirah.

His actions were comical but they were really sad at the same time. He began to pout like a dibbun but then something caught his eye. Ever so slightly he allowed his head to turn so that he could gain a better gander, which was hard because he could only see with one eye shut due to the amount of alcohol in his system. He could have sworn that he saw a glimmer, a shimmer that was from something that was hanging from her around her neck.

With his face still camouflaged by the cloak he reached out with one paw and took a hold of the necklace so that he could study it further. It was so hard to see in such dim lighting and with such blurry vision and so he sat up. He leaned in closely so that his vision would clear. It was the necklace that he had given to Kirah! The very one that fit into his like a puzzle!

Desoto didn't want to jump to any conclusions but he was drunk. "Where did you get this?" Slowly he allowed his gaze to turn upward so that she could clearly see his face, those bright shining piercing sky blue eyes of his, and he could clearly see hers. The male was stunned! He was losing his mind! There was no other explanation.

[Kirah Lovestorm]

Kirah had merely been touching his cheek telling him everything would be fine. Next thing she knew he was practically making out with her hand which bothered her for him being a drunk and when he stopped it seemed he had come to his senses which made her purse her lips in order not to laugh. When he apologized she swore she had heard that voice somewhere but couldnt quite pen the voice and she knew it and it bothered her greatly she hated being confused. "Oh who is it that I remind you of" she asked curiously thinking she had to be someone who was very intimate with him considering all the gentle kisses he had placed on her hand. Kirah frowned slightly remembering her first kiss under the large oak with Desoto it was soft and passionate making a flame down low turn into something larger one of desire and so much ignited passion. She broke her trance as she felt his hand near a certain anatomy on her body.

She froze slightly as he asked a certain personal question to her. Where had she gotten the part of the amulet around her neck. Kirah sighed not to sure what to say so s he spoke what her heart was screaming to say to her " I recieved it from someone who I love dearly and who I lost a long time ago in the war" she said not adding anymore detail or such she didnt need this man getting any more nosy with her business. She looked at him softly the blue eyes he reminded her so much of Desoto those beautiful blue eyes which she met with her amber ones. However when she regained her mind back from thoughts she furrowed her brow. "You look very familiar do I know you from somewhere perhaps" she asked curiously still not seeing his face completely just mostly his eyes his very beautiful eyes.

[Desoto]

His eyes went blurry again. He blinked them a couple of times, trying to clear them but to no avail. Her face just wouldn't be clear enough for him to see on this night and his mind was just to jumbled for him to think straight. His thoughts were playing tricks on him as was his eyes but his voice still responded to her. His voice was crackled with pain. "I was in love once. I lost her. I should have ran with her but instead I sent her away so that I could fight that stupid war." The male shook his head, trying to shake the vision of her from his mind because they were simply not to be, they being them as a couple.

He ignored the statement that she made about knowing him. Surely it could simply not be true. He just wanted to see Kirah so badly that he imagined that this femme might be her. Oh how cruel. Was he losing his mind? Was he finally so distraught over losing her that he was going completely and utterly insane?

Desoto then tried to get up. "I need more to drink! I must drink myself to death!" He then stumbled toward her and clung to her, his mouth pressing into her ear as he whispered in his drunken voice as his body staggered around, taking her with him. "You see I must drink myself to death because it's the only way that I will forget her. The dead are blessed. They know nothing nor feel nothing." Soto chuckled, almost gleefully but his laugh was still tainted with anger. It was low and dangerous.

Had the male changed? The sorrow of losing the only one that he ever loved ate away at him. Did it taint his soul forever? Desoto began to sob in the female's arms and perhaps he was being a little fresh but he missed the feel of a femme beneath his paws. Could she... just for the night... hold him? "Could you have a drink with me? Perhaps we could just hold each other and fall asleep in each others arms. I would ask for nothing more." His paw waved to the small of her back where he tenderly made small affectionate circles, as if to convince her that she should just cuddle with him for the evening. "The Gods are being cruel to me... You feel so much like her...."

[Kirah Lovestorm]

He kept talking t hat was glad to know he had a conscience Kirah wasn't sure but this wolf had wandered away from her question of knowing him which bothered her slightly. When he got up to get more to drink however she wasn't going to allow all he was doing was messing with his emotions and the alcohol consumption making it horrible. She sighed slightly he was going to be horrible with that however when he talked his words were slurred to her and considerable amount he had he was losing his mind Kirah sighed softly shaking her head. "What was this womans' who did this to such a kind gentleman who seems so sorrowful" she asked curiously but also deeply feeling his pain knowing how he felt not knowing if her lover was dead or gone.

When he got up Kirah stood still watching him as he stumbled and fell into her almost clinging and Kirah did what instinct told her wrap arms about him even though it was wierd but it felt so natural like she used to with Desoto if only this brute wasnt so drunk she could ask so many questions since he had been outside the walls and even then not sure she he had seen Desoto. He hugged her practically and kirah felt sad and stroked his fur and felt his hands on her lower back making little circles like Desoto used to do. She didnt know but it wouldnt matter if she lay there with him and cuddled besides he needed it. "Ill stay with you until morning" she said having stayed with several drunks though she had watched them not actually laid on a cot and talked about feelings and cuddled. She pulled him over to the cot and helped him down. He definatly wasnt going to get anything else to drink that was for sure. She just hoped he didnt get to frisky. She lay down and casually put an arm on his waist just letting him know she was there for him when he needed her.

[Desoto]

Reluctantly he laid down, thinking about the booze but the more important thing to him was female company. Likely she could probably almost taste the alcohol on his breath as he let out a sigh, the odor waving across her face. He was to drunk to realize what he was doing.

He felt her paw upon his waist. The feeling caused his eyes to close so that he could bask in it. But this wasn't the position that he wanted to be in. Boldly he turned her so that her back was firmly pressed into his very broad and muscular chest, where she could feel each breath that he took and he could feel the same from her.

This might not end to well....

Even tighter he pulled her body into him, his arms wrapping around her until his paw fingers were linked with hers. There was nothing like being in this position with a femme. Desoto thought that he might loose it. His mind calculated his next move. But should there be one?

The male sighed and snuggled into her warm welcoming fur, his tail wrapped around them both as it laid gently over their hips, touching the bed in front of her. He then took a chance and kissed the back of her neck, immediately speaking so that she couldn't rebuke his actions. "Are you from here? From Fort Emerald Bay that is?" His voice was very bass and vibrating on her lithesome back.

[Kirah Lovestorm]

Kirah wasnt sure what this wolf was exactly up to first she was facing him the next thing she knew he had pushed her over and was spooning her. Kirah amber eyes were wide and alert thinking her body tense very unsure of this drunken man he could very well completely over power her she couldnt help but be scared. She took a deep breath hearing his own breathing and enjoying the solid maleness of this brute even though she knew she knew him from somewhere but she couldnt quite put her paw on it so therefore she sighed deeply closing her eyes. Until that is she felt the soft lips on her neck just like Desoto used to do Kirah couldnt take this any longer she wanted to know this mans name and now. "Sir I dont mean to pry but perhaps you could give me your name" she said casually no emotion her body rigid in high tension needless to say her body had reacted to his kiss and she hated it for disobeying her.

She wanted to turn around rip the hood off his head and reveal to her the handsome form of Desoto but it would be to good to be true and there fore she was slightly holding her hands away and tightening her grip on his hand intertwined with hers which she had to admit fit just right like they were made to like a piece to an unsolved puzzle that had finally been connected. She couldnt help it and she spoke again through the pregnant silence. "My name is Kirah Lovestorm" she said filling her voice with pride and somewhat hesitant.

[Desoto]

Truthfully he didn't want to hurt the female but his grip was tight and very longing. He got some really deep mixed signals from her. At first she seemed tense but her body reacted to the kiss upon her neck very nicely. There was nothing like the feeling of a female beneath your paws as you do things to her that drives her insane with passion for you.

Oh yes he knew that she was tense and uptight but he was to drunk to even stop himself. In fact he was to out of it to even hear her name because by the time that she stated it he was fast asleep, already dreaming of the love that he lost. Softly he snored as his paws fell limp around her body, still though his paws lovingly held hers as if it were his only life line to reality.

[Kirah Lovestorm]

Kirah frowned lightly when she heard the sounds of light snoring. The she wolf started lightly not sure what to do as his grip increased. Kirah couldnt help but laugh at this for she seemed that he was up to no good. She enjoyed the warmth radiating off his body even though the smell of whiskey on his breath was enough to make a horse fall over drunk. Her eyes were feeling like little lead bars eyes closing then reopening. Though she couldnt help to admit it she herself was rather tired and soon her eyes began to close to the darkness where dreams were brought up of the past and so much more. Though she slept like a rock she was silent sleeper not making a sound just the sound of her breathing which was soft and very much feminine. She didnt wake even when the sun broke through the window so lost in sleep she didnt even mind the masculine form beside her which felt so right.

[Desoto]

Desoto began to dream. He dreamed of a time that seemed so very long ago. Parts of his dream were good but parts of it bad. Each part equally affected him in the corresponding manner. At times he would whimper in his sleep and then at other times he would groan seductively. It must have been very confusing to the femme that he held within his arms.

Eventually though the male settled down and just simply slept, even though his arms never failed to hold Kirah. This act only proved how much he missed holding the love of his life, how much he longed to be with her again, even if they were reunited in the after-life. Desoto was sure that she was dead. If she were alive he would have been able to find her by now. Right?

During the night his hood slipped from his head. His features were now all out in the open, everything from his beautiful fur colors to his brilliant blue eyes, if they were indeed open. In the morning Kirah would wake to a rather wonderful surprise and so would Desoto.

[Kirah Lovestorm]

The sun was coming through the window in golden beams warming the fur of Kirah making her move slightly. The fae slowly scrunched her eyes as she moved her arm up to block the bright beams hurting her eyes. She slowly propped herself on one elbow feeling a hand still in hers. She squeezed it least the man had slept fairly well and plus he hadnt tried anything to say the least and she had slept like a rock who wouldnt after pretty much a whole day sleeping. She pulled her hand free of him sitting up making herself comfortable in a slouching position still half asleep tired and such she was aching. With that Kirah turned to look at her companion whom which her eyes widened in dismay and her mouth agape in surprise the fem not sure whether to cry or scream it was a shock she had found him after all these years her Desoto perhaps. She gingerly and hesitantly reached out to stroke his cheek though stopped briefly before touching the soft cheek she knew as Desoto. Her eyes watered as the long years of pain and suffering thinking he was dead coming to an end. she whispered his name and laid back down curling up to him so softly like he was a life saver the only one who could technically save her. "My love" she cooed softly like she used to in her natural voice amber eyes searching his face hoping to god he recognized her she looked the same but had filled out slightly her breasts becoming bigger and her hips slightly wider. She smiled she was with him how would he react she held her breath.

[Desoto]

Desoto felt the female move. In his mind he wasn't quite sure why there was someone else with him in his bed but he just assumed that it was a femme that he had successfully seduced the night before, merely to snuggle with of course. He did that from time to time even though they thought him to be strange, to save himself for a female that was most likely dead.

Softly he groaned. His head hurt and his body ached from sleeping in the same position all night long. The male wolf didn't want to open his pools of crystal blue but he knew that he would eventually have too, even with the light pouring into the window. This fact deterred him even more. The last thing that he wanted to do was to face the world again, knowing that he'd have to go throughout another day without 'her'. This was an agonizing thought.

But then the femme joined him again but this time she seemed much more affectionate. He softly chuckled, keeping his eyes closed. "No my dear. Snuggling is as far as I can go with you." Desoto had a heart. He felt bad for the female, knowing what it felt like to be lonely. Slowly his eyes began to open. The filtering light was strong enough to impeach his vision so that he blinked a few times so that he could focus.

It took a while for things to register in his head. What were his eyes seeing? No! It can't be! Now he knew that he was really going insane. Desoto rubbed his eyes and then leaned forward. It was Kirah! His muzzle opened wide but nothing came out. He was in complete shock, in fact his heart stopped and then sped up just to let him know that he was alive. The male reached for her but as he did so he managed to fall over the side of the bed, the bed being just a single mattress.

[Kirah Lovestorm]

Kirah looked at him and watched slowly as his pale eyes opening heart beat quickening with nervousness. When he opened his eyes she merely looked at him letting him register her facade. He seemed to and he seemed shock mumbling somethign about that was all he could do to her before finally she guessed opening them all the way. She looked at him curiously and his mouth gaped open and his eyes widened to as she bout fell off the bed in pure shock instead it was quite the opposite him falling off the bed. Kirah eyes widened and she poked her head over the side of the bed. " Desoto?" she asked in question making sure she wasnt dreaming even though at the moment she was not quite sure so she pinched herself and made sure it had hurt when she did so and she sat up looking at him and then getting back on the bed to scoot all the way to the headboard bringing her knees up to her chin looking at where he had falling she was trying to think what would she say to him after so long a lot of t hings but most of all she wanted him to kiss her sorrows away and to ignite those flames of passion she so dearly loved to death. Kirah waited silently her amber eyes waiting for the head that would pop up and began examining her once more and probing her for answers. Her heart was pounding like crazy not sure if it was pure lust or soemthign else she sighed and breathed deeply trying to sooth herself.